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Cast your burden unto Hashem and He will sustain you. (Tehillim 55:23)
My help comes from Hashem creator of heaven and earth. (Tehillim 121:2)
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השלך על ה' יהבך והוא יכלכלך
( תהילים נה כג)
עזרי מעם ה' עושה שמים וארץ
(תהילים קכא ב)
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Put your trust in Hashem and He will sustain you. He will place every item you need into your world. He will lay it at your feet and in your hands. But first, you must trust with sincerity, with innocence that everything you need comes only from Him.
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Water is the symbol of love and blessings. When you open up don't worry you make place for G-d's abundant blessings.
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Every moment G-d recreates the world. So everything is just the way it should be.
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Color Meaning:
Blue the color of the sky and sea is associated with confidence, faith, trust, truth, tranquility and calmness.
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Read music info to find out more about how the artwork - water is related to this song.
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So I got kicked out of art school!
Getting kicked out of ASL is some feat! – Nobody ever got kicked out of ASL!.. – it's the most informal laissez-faire art school !?! But somehow I managed to do it. The story goes like this…
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At that time, I was busy during the day working on a computer programming gig. I really wanted to know more about Music therapy and Touro was offering night classes in my neighborhood so I figured it would be convenient to take classes there. However, they weren't offering Music therapy. So I took Art therapy. And I loved it! … I loved it so much that I decided to drop the studies (well not exactly, I was supposed to get on a scholarship but it fell through since I already had a degree, so I just finished that semester..) and just do Art all the time. Painting is very therapeutic … has a very calming effect… in a way, even more than music.
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I heard about the ASL – very open – studio/ artist networking space… I registered for classes there and started painting my huge 25 ft canvas paintings. The elder members did not like me, a new member, at all – "how dare she start a new painting every day.. and so HUGE … exciting… colorful.. and flaunting…" when they have been working on the same painting for the past 20 years… what Chutzpah! I felt their attitude so I would try to keep a low profile – just hanging out – discussing art with professors and fellow artists.. … and only once people started going home, would I set up and paint for a few hours…
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So it was 1 AM and I was standing there with a hose wetting my 25 ft canvas. The janitor saw me and snitched on me to the administrator. The next day I was summoned to the "principal's" office…. and got kicked out... (I might have been able to stay, had I apologized… and promised to start painting smaller boring paintings… but I wasn't going to do that… and figured it is probably better that I leave.)
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The next day, being free, – with no schedule at all – I decided to go to the Met. I found my favorite spot – the Japanese garden, ( I love Japanese gardens wherever I go, I look out for Japanese gardens. My most recent one being in India or maybe it was Panama – I can't remember where).. and sat down to pray Shachris – morning prayers. I had all the time in the world so I was singing and composing songs all along…I finished S"E and started thinking about my recent expulsion from ASL. I felt bad. How did I get kicked out of the ASL- the most open non-formal environment – no one ever gets kicked out of there?.…
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It kind of reminded me of all the times I got kicked out of schools– when I was really a very studious kid, performing great academically and keeping away from trouble. I wasn't rebellious at all. I just wasn't understood. I was sort of a mystery to the teachers and principals and it scared them. So I would be asked to move on… somewhere else..…
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I got back to the Siddur praying.. everything. every page, every paragraph, and then got to the last prayer, which is not often said, but it is very encouraging and a good way to start the day
השלך על ה' יהבך והוא יכלכלך עזרי מעם ה' עושה שמים וארץ
Cast your worries onto Hashem and He will support you. My help comes from Hashem creator of heaven and earth. The water trickling by was very calming and raised my spirits. I felt all refreshed. Clean, pure… all troubles washed away and just flowing with the flow… no worries! I liked the new song, a sweet gift from Hashem, and recorded it on my mini disc.
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When we recorded this song for the album, I told Todd, my co-producer, that I want to maintain the authenticity of the song and have a water soundtrack in the background. But before I even mentioned that to him, Todd not knowing anything about this Japanese garden story, out of the blue.. quotes me "" - so I figured –we got to have the water soundtrack here...
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Oh – and another great thing that happened…. I got to have an amazing art show in Chelsea @ an unbelievable gigantic space with stunning views of the cityscape and Hudson River . I would've never had it were I to stay in the Art Student's League. I might have still been painting the same painting till today. Thank You Hashem….
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